Lately

notes from the far and the shallows

I wandered a little far from the shallows as September settled into itself.

This is a piece I’ve been meaning to write for some time, a return to the world I have made here of words, of offerings to the trying to conceive community, of me (the pieces I choose to share, which is often both a lot, and a glimpse).

For years now, writing a ‘newsletter’ has been something I have done, in former days with my university cohort and latterly to the community that chooses to read them. Sometimes I fill them with things I find interesting, of classes I’m running, of spaces I have to work with me and things of that energy.

But the truth is, I haven’t had much to say this autumn.

Not here and not on Instagram. Instead I have needed to listen to what it is I want to say as I transition my work from conception doula to a psychotherapist specialising in fertility. The urge to listen inwardly and get this ‘right’ has stifled my capacity to produce content in the digestible form required by algorithms, by scrolling fingers, by my own self judgment.

And so, a day or two off the gram turned into several and really, none of this is predominantly about the above but more about my own need to process the meteor crater of 2024, as the seasonal wheel begins to tilt me back towards where it all began.

I am physically healed, grief channeled into calisthenics super strength and also I am emotionally becoming, as we always are and always will be. I think sometimes the season requires less words and more contemplation. Or something like that.

Evolving

I am often guilty of imagineering things I will do that don’t arrive in the timing I had planned. So here is the untimelined trajectory I am working with. Today I feel like I am making a wholesale comeback. But I have felt this before this year, so I’m going to let it unfold as it will. What I do know is….

…it has been a true pleasure to begin working with 1:1 clients again both as a doula and business mentor and I have space for around 5-6 sessions a week. If you’d like one, all you need to do is get in touch.

Later this month, I’ll be starting my clinical psychotherapy placement and I am diving deep into my studies in this semi-sabbatical time.

In 2025, I will be bringing cosy sofas and plants into my studio as it evolves into my private practice therapy space. My desire to be a voice that soothes in the infertility realm has not faltered. It’s now increasingly underpinned by a psychotherapeutic understanding that will bring even more depth to my work with anxiety, trauma and grief. My yoga and somatic background will all be part of the fabric. How could it not be?

Because I still do have so very much to say. I’ve only really just begun.

Thanks for staying around as I come back into orbit,

H x